Hate to admit it but i have summer classes. In other words, I have a back subject. This saying is true:”regret is always at the end”. The truth is, even before the last semester ended, i accepted the fact that I have to. Early morning yesterday, my mom and I went for some walkathon and later played badminton. On the way to this place where she (mom) usually do her rounds of walking, we had a little chit chat. *blah*blah*blah* Then the topic went down to my summer classes. I said, “you know what mom, it’s good that i get to experience this kind of classes”. She replied, “why was that”? “I get to see what i did wrong with the semesters that i already had. With this kind of course(architecture), there’s no room for laziness. Some of my classmates don’t do their work on time (when I said some, I mean majority). They rather have their senseless talks with their seatmates or go down stairs to eat. Some just go home after the attendance had been checked. I mean, do you even know why your here? I remember this instance, two more working days before we pass our first major plate, we are asked to have some research work. A guy picked up his fone, called this person and said “could you do me a favor? Please make some research paper for me, and Oh for my pal too. I’ll just pay you later ok?” First of all, we are not in a real job yet in fact we are still in college. Then here you are, askin a friend to do your work as if you are a boss. Don’t blame others if you won’t have a single page of it just because you haven’t have enough time to do so.
This realization for me should have hit me earlier. If it only did, I’m definitely not having this classes. It’s like seeing myself in his persona (my classmate). Not that I pay people to do my work but in a way that I don’t prioritze things yet. I’d rather do other stuff than my own assignments. In the end, i get too tired that I won’t pick up my pen and start inking my plan. The next morning you wake up, stressed out because you haven’t done a thing yet and the deadline for submission is today. Yep, that’s how my life is sometimes. In regular days of classes, you see some of those students who have no apparent thread of exhaustion despite of a very tiring night the night before. They as bubbly as always and can still joke around. Their secret, enjoy things. Don’t treat your work as a burden but rather as an enjoyment or an outlet of creativity. In that way, you’ll find yourself actually striving even harder and see things as a competion. Competitive in a good way. You’ll have this vision of beeing on top yet foot planted on the ground. So if you’re feeling so down bout failure, just look on the people who actually failed then look at yourself. Make it a motivation that you can’t fall flat on the floor like them.
I may not be at the top of my class. I’m more than guilty to admit that I’ve had so many attempts to back out on this course (this cursed course) and at the end of the day, realization comes and slaps you on the face. You don’t have a lifetime to spend attending a university. But there’s one thing that I always keep in mind, failure won’t be my end. Yet, it is my beginning. Do I sound too deep again? Oh gosh… Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! HeHeHe! Ok. See ya laterzzz…
Fragile Mind 
